FANDOM: Buffy, decease Willow/Oz
SPOILERS: Season 4
DISCLAIMER: Oz and Willow belongs to Joss Whedon, pharm Mutant Enemy, etc.
Oz sat on the cold floor in a cave. His thoughts were on Willow, as they always were. What was she feelign or doing right now? Did she miss him? Stupid question. Of course she did. The same way he missed her.
His thoughts went to how he hurt her. I couldn’t help it. It wasn’t my fault. Oz’s mind quickly attacked. But it was your fault. You wanted Veruca, while still human, remember? Oz covered his ears. Then you left Willow, remember? Then you sent for all your stuff, didn’t even call her, and made her think you were never coming back. Oz couldn’t stop hearing the thoughts in his head. They were echoing throughout his mind, and even the cave.
Oz’s voice echoed throughtout the cave. “No! I didn’t mean to.” He paused for the ringing in his ears. “She didn’t even give me a chance to explain.”
All the noise stopped and Oz dumped out a sheet of paper and a pencil from his bag, and began to write a song.
“Put these chains over me.” Oz looked helplessly at the chains around his wrists and the inevitable landscape outside. He wanted desperately to be home. He needed Willow. To make him feel whole. “To make me feel I’m alive.” Why?! Why did this happen? Everything was fine.
His sorrow went against everything in his mind. He did the unthinkable and blamed Willow. It was all her fault! He couldn’t figure out how, but it had to be. I loved her so much, I had to leave, and now I’m hurting because of it. You didn’t even believe me when I tried to explain after the night you found us. That’s because it wasn’t true, his mind intervened. Oz went on, “I want to feel you’re faith, but you’re never on my side. I want to feel your faith explain that I never tried.” I tried, Willow. I tried to resist, I swear. Oz’s mind echoed. He quickly continued to write, willing the voice saying “No you didn’t.” away.
“I don’t care for change. Tied again.”
Oz got out of the chains from the night before. He felt horrible. He needed to get out of the cave. He dove forever until he got to his home, for now.
“Everything was overturned.” He couldn’t think straight. He just needed her to believe him. “I want to see your face explain that I never tried.”
A tear came from Oz’s eye. “I never wanted. I don’t care. I never wanted change. I never wanted… I don’t care… I never wanted…” Oz sighed. “Tied again,” he said aloud.
He would go back to Willow. He just needed time. Maybe only time was on his side… Oz shook his head. No, Willow was on his side, too. And he’d come back to show her he knew.
TIED UP
by Four Star Mary
put these chains over me
make me feel I’m alive
i want to feel you’re faith
but you’re never on my side
i want to feel you’re faith explain
that i’ve never tried
i dont’ care for change
other worlds won’t explain
tied again
see these cars on the road
all these cars overturned
i want to see you’re faith
but you’re never on my side
i want to see you’re face explain
that i’ve never tried
i don’t care for change
other worlds other days
tied again
when i see them tied again
when i see them lie
i never wanted
i don’t care
i never wanted change
i never wanted
i don’t care
i never wanted
tied again
THE END